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here's the dinner served early saturdaymorning april 15th

one of the 1st guys I shared these pages with is a senior online buddy living in NYC
below is his reation:

hi,

happy spring, which has finally arrived here and the last of the snow piles are almost all melted away.....
first off, I share your love of Willem Kok's art. Martin shared much with me, he truly was remarkable.....

What a very nice gift you are giving this young man to be with him as he finds his way through the beginning of the most satisfying sexual activity where the true person is shared, and given..... it is an intimate experience that i think cannot be equalled... i think i have told you of the beginnings of my trip through shit play, and how tremendously satisfying each trip with a man is so truly a beautiful experience..... one can enjoy with all the senses, the touch and feel, the scent, taste, and different textures, and the visual beauty of it all happening, and to be experienced in the embrace of a man and to be holding this man within your arms, hands, lips, throat and finally ingesting his essence...... truly a sharing of each other as no other way exists ...

This young man is extremely lucky, as my trip began with sexual lust and ended up a spiritual experience.... i feel no matter how one enters, if they leave truly satisfied and also pleasured, the ultimate exchange of body fluids will have been achieved...... when jesus is quoted as saying "take of my body and eat, drink of my blood...." just what body parts was he talking about........ alas we shall never know as i have never see proof he actually said those words..... there was a man i was sexually active with then i was about 11, i could not cum yet myself but i did enjoy bringing a man off in my mouth... he once said that what he believed jesus meant when he said "suffer the little children to come unto me and i will give them peace..." he was actually instructing his followers to bring the pleasures of sex to children, as he most likely was doing..... of course he was on the surface being rather self serving looking for justification for his pleasures, however he never forced himself on me, and i never heard of that happening to others, he opened doors for boys......

When i was young i did have sex with boys my own age group, but i mostly had sex with older men because of my lack of a father in my life, i wanted, and got substitutes, many who were really very beneficial to me beyond sex..... for me at the time, blowing a teenager was lustful sex, and the result was the same as if i had jerked off. of course i have enjoyed swallowing cum when ever i got some in my mouth..... and later when i would get fucked, i found that even more pleasurable and fulfilling, but as with the first time i sucked a cock, or tasted cum, when i first tasted another man's shit i knew this was a real deal for myself, and not just that i was giving the other man pleasure on several levels.... as i had been slowly introduced to the flavor and scent of shit through sexual activity involving licking fucked assholes and sucking cocks as the pulled out of assholes, the careful training by my mother about the "filth and dirtiness" of shit and piss, i also was fining that was not true, and thus not repulsive so when the time came i was laying my mouth under an asshole as it opened and for the first time seeing the glow of a whole turd slither out and into my lips i was truly ready even though i had not until that instant realized i wanted and needed the experience so much.

In this day and age there is much more danger , not of being found out, but being found out and chastised for an action which is essentially natural for us... one can go publicly only as far as is safe.... it is like being a porn star, recognized in a super market. hold your head up and be not ashamed. you are being what you are and you need to please only yourself and a partner..... performing any extreme sexual activity, ( and scat has been sensationalized by those not into doing it, or by those of the "do right" personality ) it is no more sensational than blowing a man in a public place, or getting fucked by the alter in a church....(did both before i was 18) and i didn't give a flying fuck if anyone knew...... this before 1958 and all gay things in the world were at best closeted...... all you can do is make the young man aware of the disgust most hold for scatological sex.... and he must make his own judgement ....

As for myself i have never denied to an employer, or a land lord that i am gay.....i have also never been forward about it either..... in 1983 i believe it was i was in san francisco, from southern california where i worked for jcpenney stores, on a business trip, and at the same time i took a few days off before returning..... a march on market street from castro to city hall was organized protesting the city's lack of action on any front of the aids crises ..... the march was called "saving our lives".... it was led and organized by the gay leather community, and i joined the march, not the first gay march i had been in as i marched in manhattan for gay rights before 1969, and was in the crowd in the village the day after the stonewall raid, and subsequent marches and demonstrations ..... when i got back to southern california my manager told me he had seen me on a tv news program in the march, which was of course true. many tv news men photographed us. and especially when those of us near the front got near van ness street we looked back and there was market street filled with men holding candles as far back as could be seen, all the way back to castro street a good mile behind us, he took my hand and shook it, then said.... "i am glad you have the balls to stand up for what is right...." and i am proud to say the jcpenney company treated the many thousands of their employees who died of aids with care and dignity, paid their regular salary, and insurance and other benefits, until they died ...

I should note in all honesty that at that time a corporate executive's son was dying of aids, i am sure was an influence on that policy which was in effect until i retired in 2000... and may still be in effect....

I have never bowed my head when called faggot, cocksucker and queer..... i am 77 years old and have few, if any regrets about the way i have lived my life.... except perhaps as a young boy i could be a bully at times... but i grew up when i became a wrestler in high school and fond that with that attitude i would get the shit beat out of me, as others would not put up with that crap..... i have been with the same man since 1970, we married in washington dc in 2010 when it became legal, and we did it at the park in dupont circle, a rather public place we both had good memories about....we attracted a crowd and received many good wishes from total strangers..... i have in many ways been very fortunate in my life

You are doing a good thing by being a friend to this young man and i hope he understands how lucky he is......
Thank you for sharing with me, i appreciate it very much.......
Now i can go eat my chocolate bunny, and sublimate it is made of another substance...........

Charlie

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