thought long and hard about the subject matter to feature in the 1st version of this new page.
But during the summer it slowly became clear that the main subject, especially after my presence
at the Putin demonstration at the Amsterdam Shipping Museum and more recently at Museumsquare,
It just had to have a Queer Russian radiation.
What better way to celebrate than with a glorious high resolution sound recording of a piece I heard 1st at age 12,
by the composer who'se homosexual drive played a mayor role in his creativity, which 'pathetically'
is denied under current Russian sentiments and legislation, giving way to oppression of the minority we are proudly part of,
as is relayed in the newspaper that in recent days has come up as prime defender of freedom of speech, both in the east as in the west,
aptly named the Guardian.

Ken Russels -Pathetique- movie "the music lovers" is online in full in Russian (but needs litle text; in 5 parts)
and shows how Russians were just as horrible about expressing true gender preferences in 1893, as nowadays:

Below clip proves Ken Russell is brilliant, and also completely, certifiably insane.
This clip is more dizzying than watching all the Matrix films in one sitting. Awesome!

here's another 15 minit fragment in English, also quite suitable (for the classic romantically inclined)
to experience how overpowering Tsjaikowski's music was
(possibly because he was not allowed to express his feelings in any other way):

Great vision of the director (who did many many more amazing musicians appreciation movies)
to choose the actor Richard Chamberlaine, who was very late to come-out, so experienced with living a closeted life,
perfect to play Pjotr Illich.

The Russians to this day keep material documenting the final days of their most popular composer under wraps. Why?
The BBC dramatised documentary on his life and preferences tells more:

it figures how the Russians got to resent homosexuality,
as showing same-sex intimacy was rendered a shallow, fake gesture, by the old Soviet leaders,
as was so subtly parodised on the old Berlin wall:

even as Russian and Christian-fanatic so-called 'historians' and 'musicologist' recently revived publications
and go out of their way to argue that Tchaikovski cound not possibly be gay, I wonder why they make such a fuss,
and stick with this article quoting from Tsjaikowski's private correspondence to friends in the west,
and thus verifiable to us, while most of this private diaries remaining in Russia are still kept secret.

to finish this page with just a slight homo-erotic visual glance,
having worked for a major part of my professional carreer in modern dance,
I just had to include portrayals of the most renowned Russian dancers that were both homo- or at least bisexual,
and had to flee their home country: Vaclav Nyinski and Rudolf Nureyev:

Ad, sept. 2013